I was signed up to lead song service, with two other of the SM's thankfully. If you know me I am not one to get up in front of church and sing. However neither was either of the two people I was with. It made it for an interesting morning. We got to church at about 9:05 am and it should start at 9:15. But it never does. We started at about 9:20 with our three songs. It is nice to be on Island time, at least this morning it was.
When I asked everyone to turn in their hymnals to Day by Day, our third song, which was the opening song. The three of us just started singing, because no one told us that we had to tell people to stand, to wait for them to stand, and to wait for the piano. None of those things were happening for the first two songs. All three of us couldn't figure out where we were supposed to be singing and we also couldn't stop smiling ( trying to hold back laughter). Once the three of us pulled ourself together by the second verse everything went much smoother. It was REALLY embarrassing, but luckily there were only a few non-sm's in the church that early so it was All Good.
During sabbath school I sat next to two girls that will be in my 5th grade class, ones name is Mary and one is Victoria. During the sabbath school, when the different people up front were not speaking english the girls were translating for me. It was defiantly more entertaining that way :) about half way through the sabbath school lesson Victoria, the pastor daughter, turned and just stared at me for a minuet. She whispered in my ear, " what color are you eyes?" I answered "Blue", opening my eyes really big and smiling, she of course did the same thing. Then she asked, " How did you get your blue eyes?", I responded " My Mommy and Daddy gave them to me, just like your Mommy and Daddy gave you your beautiful brown eyes." She smiles and the proceeded to ask me " Do you see everything in Blue?" I smiled and said " No, I see the world just the same color as you do." she smiled and then sat still only for a few moments.
After sabbath school the three of us were approached (the SM's), and were asked to lead the church in song service, because only one of the people had come that day to do it ( one of our SM's) so we decided to all 4 go up to the front and sing again. It went much better the second time around.
During the Church service, Victoria who is a brilliant child. So as you read this next question, please do not think anything less than brilliance. She started to poke me, and then I realized she was poking at all of my freckles on my arm. She whispers again, " Miss Kaitlin, what are those?" I whispered back " They are called freckles." She asked, " where do they come from?" I told her that " The sun gives them to me, The more I am out in the sun the more I get. But I have had them all of my life." She then looks at me and asked " Well if you are not in the sun, if you go to a cold place? do they disappear?" calmly I responded " No they will be with me forever." Content with my answer she went back to playing with her dress. :) I couldn't help but smile.
It is amazing how Jesus knows exactly what you need, and I defiantly needed some laughter today. I was in church from 9 am- 1:15 pm. We have a pastor visiting and so he decided to preach for church his scheduled sermon, his sabbath school lesson (because there wasn't enough people to here his message during sabbath school), an example sermon for the Evangelistic groups they are trying to start, and then his wife went up to talk about women's ministry. The two girls were trying their best not to fall asleep, but so was I.
Finally we were able to go an eat, we had church potluck today. It was very nice, there was a lot of food and a lot of nice people. I have officially decided that I will be staying Vegetarian this year. (Sorry David) but I just can't do it, at least not here.
After finishing potluck I came to get internet to talk with my family. We talked about a lot of things. It is always nice to just talk. The realization that I am going to be here for a long time is slowly setting in. Today one of the SM's left, It is incredibly frustrating to me, for many reasons. He was very home sick and so he wasn't eating, spending all day in the AV room, and wasn't enjoying himself very much. But I feel it is a choice. You have a choice to feed yourself or not, you have a choice with what you do with your time and you have a choice to stop and realize how blessed you are. In my opinion when you spend as much money, as we did , coming over here and you only spend two weeks in a country that needs help. In a country that could use that money that you spent on the plane ride over and now back, it is upsetting. It is also upsetting that he is going home and I am still here. I miss Home, the weather, the food, and most of all the people. But I am called to be something more than myself. I am called to serve God; to wholeheartedly serve. I will come home when my time is up, but for now I am too stubborn to go home. I know that I am supposed to be here, and I know that I will never be alone. However I am truly scared. School starts on monday and I AM NOT READY, and I know that God has to work through me this year, because I am not enough, I will never be enough. But I would like to feel more ready than I am. I have been praying about a lot of things, and school is a big part. I have come to the realization of how truly unqualified I am. It is scary, but I know that is the point in which God is able to shine through me, because I know that I can't do this for one day, let alone for 10 months with out God's help and guidance.
It is starting to get hard, and so I as for prayers.
Please do not worry, I am doing alright. It is just starting to sink in, and the more real it becomes the more I realize the reality here, soon to become my reality for the next 10 months.
Love and prayers from Majuro!
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